the intern diaries {week 9}…

hold on tight, things are about to get interesting!

so week 9 has been & gone and i have the distinct feeling my internship is turning a corner & i don’t just mean passing the half way mark… for those of you who checked out my recent post on friday’s thoughts you’re a step ahead of the rest…

week 9: be careful what you wish for…

so a couple of weeks back i mentioned that i’d approached the director of ff&e about stepping up my role… i wanted to be involved with a project from the outset so i could follow the process as a whole & learn the ropes from the ground up…

in particular, i wanted to understand the processes of budgeting & scheduling, etc. {what most would consider to be the boring, behind-the-scenes steps} in real time…

well, little did i think my request would even be registered, never mind acted upon… but later the same week i was told there might be an upcoming project on which i could get involved…

cut to one week later {last thursday} & i’m told not only is there a project, but that i’m going to be actually running the ff&e process myself {of course, under the watchful eye of a colleague}… the words “make or break” were being bantered around the team, followed by the odd guffaw & chuckle…

i suddenly became aware of an absence of air in my lungs… that momentary cessation of breath which signals the onset of a mild panic!

at 4pm that same day i was pulled into an impromptu meeting wherein i was given a brief overview of the project to date… by this stage the initial consultation with the client had taken place and there had already been a couple of meetings with the head designer which had resulted in a plethora of inspiration images, plans & sketches having been produced…

so already it’s pretty clear i’m playing catch-up…

my brain is now racing, desperately trying to take it all in, & then the bombshell… there’s a meeting the next day with the head designer & not only am i attending, but i’m meant to have something to actually contribute…

suffice to say the momentary loss of breath from earlier had now escalated into a distinct tightening of the chest muscles overlaid with full-on heart palpitations… & suddenly that old saying “be careful what you wish for” was intercepting my thoughts at every turn, making it almost impossible for me to come up with any kind of game plan…

why the panic? isn’t this exactly what i’d asked for?

well, kind of… i’d actually secretly dared to dream of being given the opportunity to play co-pilot: following the lead of one of the more experienced team members whilst studiously taking notes & doing the behind-the-scenes gumph work {making phone calls, ordering samples, budgeting, etc.}…

what i hadn’t expected {in a million years} was to be told i would be running the process itself…

yes, hands up, some self doubt kicked in… but beyond that, what i really struggled with was knowing where to begin & what the heck was expected of me… had this been my studio & my client, then i’d make my own rules… but when you’re working for somebody else, it’s a different ball game altogether…

a bit of direction is required & in order to get some answers to the multitudinous questions swimming about in my head i’ve determined to bribe my colleague with a daily supply of brownies & pump him for information & insight on an hourly basis…

to say i’m going to be learning on the job with this project is putting it mildly…

lesson learned, be careful what you wish for as you may just get it!

image via: lauren b beauty

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